Stupid Hurts

It is simply amazing how some of the things I have never said out loud are common knowledge among everyone I know. They all know why I don’t watch certain movies because they remind me of a certain someone. Or why it isn’t a good idea to broach certain topics with me. How certain questions always get quick subject changes or flat out ignored. It is even worse lately with my tell tale twitch that shows when I am agitated. Even people who I have never told the story to, seem to know exactly where my hang ups and issues come from. And it is odd even if they like me or hate me they have all been saying the same thing. Something I have been avoiding for some time now.

They are all suggesting I do something that’s the equivalent of touching a stove to remind myself that it’s hot. The sad part is even though I know it’s a bad idea, I really, really, want to reach out and touch that flickering flame and get scorched again. I guess when you spend everyday trying not to think about someone you are really just thinking about them that much more.

So I have a theory as to why chain restaurants are typically successful. Consistency is key. I know for a fact I can go to a MacDonald’s anywhere in the world and without looking at the menu order a number one, and the person behind the counter will hand me a Big Mac and a soda. There is no risk in getting something unfamiliar or “strange” because I know the one in Seattle Washington serves the exact same thing as the one in Taipei Taiwan.
So I went to Checkers yesterday and ordered a new burger they had on their menu. It was awesome. I think I sat there for nearly an hour savoring every single bite. The only thing that would have made the burger more perfect would have been a nice thick slice of pineapple. Given the fact I usually avoid chain restaurants because they are almost always the same time after time, I went back to Checkers today expecting the same awesome burger. Unfortunately I was sorely disappointed. I really wonder what could have happened in 24 hours. This time I came close to tossing the burger in the trash halfway through eating it. I was painfully reminded why I prefer mom and pop places now.

And as an added bonus my chest hurts……..