Stupid Hurts

I really need a new hobby. I don’t have my sewing machine, or my bicycle and I only get depressed when I have too much time on my hands. So I have decided to buy myself some yarn and knitting needles once I get some extra cash, learn how, and then knit myself a 10 feet long scarf.

Long enough to be a hazard. Or long enough to fight crime with it. Odds are to do that many stitches it will be warm again by the time I get done, since the estimate I have read is just this side of 30,000 stitches or about 7 pounds of yarn.

So I am done with the Mark8 bag for now ,and odds are it will be a bit before I make a new bag. The unfortunate thing about bag making is you really don’t know what you did wrong as far as ergonomics go until you are done with the bag and have weight in it. There are some things that just work and some things that just don’t and those you can tell on paper. But when you are trying new things, well, you takes your chances.

Well 8 generations and somewhere around 17 bags later I am coming up on a concrete design I finally like. The Mark8 has the shape of my all time favorite bag, but it is built like the 1 of the most durable bags I ever made. Plus I tried a few new tricks.

In the end I combined this shape.
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But I built it like this one. That shape is also a lot easier to embroider, but a bit harder to assemble. But bags made from this shape tend to last longer
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So I ended up with this
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This time I also tried a fabric that I haven’t used before called Sunbrella. It is a waterproof canvas that’s worlds cheaper than Cordura. But it lacks that nice shine Cordura has. It was a just a little hard on the knuckles to, but over all I am a pleased with the results over all.

I also made shoulder pads for this bag that where separate. That was a new thing for me.
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And then the drugs kicked in…….again

My last conversation with my doctor was about my options to resolve the issues with my seizures. Unfortunately they all will result in further memory loss and odds and a personalty change. Knowing that has kinda made all the other things that people have been hounding me with lately seem a bit petty and trivial. I am still having to wrap my mind around the fact that odds are I am signing up to wake up a totally different person. It was hard to lose a chunk of my memory once. Kinda like suicide for beginners

“I am ok. I promise”

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There are several people whom a simple mention of their name cause a flare of my nervous twitch in some cases followed by a headache. I have been a little curious of what would happen if I ran into one of them, but on the same note, I have been bit afraid. Fortunately only one of them lives in my time zone, so they have all be easy to avoid until now.

Earlier tonight I went to the ticket pre-sale party of the musical “Spam-a-lot” based on Monty Python’s Knights of the Holy Grail at the Workplay theater. I knew some of my friends would be there but I didn’t seriously expect to run into Denise. Most people who know me, know her as a legend. Her reputation sort of precedes her, she was my first girlfriend and she still holds the record for the longest relationship I have ever had part of. So no matter what I hold her in fairly high regards even if I little memory of our time together.

I saw her sit down in the corner with a book in an effort to avoid the crowd like she normally does. I debated leaving or just making an attempt to avoid her, but I figured it would be best to face my fear and speak to her and get it over with. Because if I didn’t I wouldn’t. So I walked up we sat down and talked for a bit. It was nice but my twitch got rather fierce and I found myself explaining that she made me really nervous. We talked for a bit longer before they had to pack up to leave.

I had been twitching most of our conversation, but I tried my best to ignore it because I do it when ever I get stressed. A few moments later while talking to my friend John I had a mild seizure. Luckily I made it to a chair. But I was really afraid for a few minutes that I would be spending the night in the hospital, I couldn’t really move my left side or form a sentence I was just stuck there eyes close drooling and crying. It took a few attempts for me to form a complete sentence to answer the repeated question, “are you ok?” This is the first seizure I can really recall. All my other seizures are in that gap of my memory that is blanked out completely. I seized up a second time at work, but it was no where near as bad as the first

You know what, just bury me where ever I fall off my bike.

After finding out I had been scheduled to see a gynecologist I already knew where my day was headed. Luckily we got that sorted out fairly quickly and the nurses got me to a much needed neurology specialist.
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To make a long and convoluted story short. Several hours of questions, poking, and prodding they realized odds are it is the medicine I am on thats actually been causing the moods swings, the confusion, and the depression. Most importantly the drugs may be responsible for the hallucinations, lets not forget those. I am sure the nurse I tackled hasn’t forgotten about it yet.

Anyway they decided to lower my dosage by about a quarter so hopefully we will no longer be paying 200 some odd dollars a week for meds any more since my doc cut the dosage by a quarter.
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And there is now actually a piece of paper signed by a doctor saying dont drive or work for nine more months instead of just six.

So I want either a [tag]tri[/tag]-bike or a [tag]fixie[/tag] next.

If i just happen to find $5000 bucks on the ground I would love to get one of these.
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But the odds of that are pretty slim, so more likely than not it will be a fixie since they fall closer to the $200 dollar price range

So this is my final night in Orlando before operation “Home for the [tag]Holidays[/tag] begins.” 600 miles in 10 days by [tag]bicycle[/tag]. I am pretty excited and it looks like the weather will be perfect the entire time. I have a few small last minute preparations to make, but I am still really excited and ready to get started. I will try my best to keep the site updated while en route.